On the morning of March 30, 2013, I emailed the internet company to say cancel my subscription.  I’d been paying monthly since September 2012 and even spent money to market with no results.  My wife expressed concern for this reoccurring charge that was not producing any results by asking how long I was going to continue paying.  This was in January 2013.  This question suddenly made me more accountable.  During the prior months, I did not give a second thought to the charges.  After all I was in my own type of prestigious golf club although I was not going on the greens.  On the day I scheduled to cancel, my wife asked if I was going to feel bad doing so.  I replied that I would.  “I see the potential and they have some new tools.”  She nodded with understanding and gave a supportive “Mmmhmm.”  Had I asked her to let me explore this opportunity longer, she would have blessed it.  The decision then was mine to decide on my direction at this crossroad.  I chose to be true to my word and cancel.  I decided to focus on two other opportunities I was more passionate about.

Today you may be at a crossroad in your home, career or personal life.  You may be asking yourself, which direction I should choose.  Perhaps these thoughts may provide you with some perspective.  Have you done what you needed to up to this point to afford you with no regrets if you went in another direction?  For those last three months I was held accountable and used the membership.  Then on March 30, I was able to look back and say, I gave it my best shot.

Have you given your best shot until this point?  Have you fought for your marriage before thinking of quitting?  Have you applied yourself at your current position at work before deciding it is time to move on?  Have you focused on the goal you had and followed through on your commitment before deciding to choose a new direction?  Have you held yourself accountable?  If not, find someone who will.  Now, do not be afraid to choose one path or the other because either will bring rewards and woes.  Decide based on your values and your passion. Then move in the direction of your purpose.  People who love and admire you are depending on you.  Your heart is depending on you.  (Matt 6:21)

Life washes on your shores waves of decision

And you gasp for a moment of clarity for purpose you envision

Gosh what do I do with this stormy gush?

Because I want to move in peace, I want some hush

This job is drowning my purpose – there is no future

I need to sail toward a new horizon or risk rupture

In my mind I feel so conflicted I struggle to breathe

How could I rise above the storm and have my passion seethe?

Was I focused and true to my commitment?

Then no matter my next ship I’ll sail with contentment

But now as the sun sets on this instructive voyage

At sunrise, I will captain my vessel with enhanced courage